Tuesday, February 24, 2009

So, here I am...where I said I would never be...

Yeah, I am not a blogger. I am, as my husband would say, perpetually caught in the paralysis of analysis. I see all the options and possibilities...ALL OF THEM...ALL THE TIME...and never take the big step. I would love to be a scrapbooker and beautifully preserve each moment of our lives; but I sit, STARING at the blank page--shifting pictures around, looking at different colors and prints, considering themes and stickers and markers vs. pencils--until finally, mostly because I need to have something to show for HOURS of attention, I have one (ONE) page. So here it is, my ONE post. Can I admit to you that I already re-edited this one simple paragraph several times?
Also, I am a WORD-NERD. I love words! I love learning where they come from, how they are constructed, love learning how to spell them and their variations, love seeing them, writing them, love putting them together with other words...love 'em. I read all the time, just for the joy of taking new words and knowledge into my brain. BTW--I readily admit that it doesn't always stick! :D
Now combine that love of words with PoA (paralysis of analysis) and you have me...the person terrified to write because there are so many ways to put the words together. There are so many ways to say what is meant; so many ways to be misunderstood; to spell things wrong; to follow a line of thought; to go on a tangent. There are so many ways to make a mistake, but I guess I am learning that it is also a mistake to withhold when you have the ability to give.
One of my favorite scriptures is also a song and also my e-mail signature--"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Thy sight, O Lord, my Strength and my Redeemer!" (Psalm 19:14) So here I am--putting myself out there to "build and defend." I really appreciated Bro. David's message on Sunday night (2/22/09) and that we need to build the Church--witness and testify--and defend the Church--be a working part and lift the standard.
Well, I have to go get ready for the working part...7th Grade English class.
Praise the Name of Jehovah!